1.a weak or ineffectual person (often used as a general term of abuse).
1.fail to do or complete something as a result of fear or lack of confidence.
This post is in relation to growing up. 9 times out of 10 times I want to remain a child simply out of being scared to become an actual adult. Between bills and career commitments I truly want to stay in my mother’s house forever. The idea that there is no manual on how to become an adult is scary as hell when you have to take full responsibility for your life. No one’s going to return you to your parents and say you’re just a child. It’s just you now. I know it sounds daunting but I think there can be some fabulous positives to growing up.
The truth is that eventually we will have to move out, find our own feet and even buy a house. There will be a lot of paperwork, a lot of planning and a lot of first-time mistakes but I’m realising we can’t achieve anything if we don’t even start. The same applies for starting our own companies. I currently have a limited company and every time I have to contact my accountant it’s a little reminder that I have to be accountable and I can’t run from that when I want to reap the benefits that come with it. Finally, I have to say to myself, this is my life and these are my choices and everything I do has a consequence. Every time I’ve chosen to go into an unplanned overdraft, I’ve incurred a fee, that has been the consequence. Eventually, just like life’s little nuances, you realise that all these costly mistakes add up and it’s better to take charge of your situation rather than you running from it.
Walking into the unknown isn’t always easy but we’ve always come out on the other side, a little wiser and a little more grateful for our experiences. Instead of tasting fear I choose to use my other senses to see the joy in my future and understand the fruitfulness that will come from my mistakes. So yes, I choose to make mistakes, I choose to not know all the answers and sometimes say “I honestly don’t know.” I’m not omniscient, I’m human and I’m growing over life. In accepting that, I’ve decided to stop being a wuss and go for life.